태어나기 전부터 병신 취급을 받았던 의사는
낙태를 권유해
나보고 장애라고 말을 했다던데
고민 끝에 아버지 덕에 지금 여기까지
왜 그랬을지 몰라 지금 보니까 돈 때문이었을까
그게 맞았던 거 같아
내가 느껴온 삶이란
종이 수십 장과 비교될 뿐
그 수가 좀 다를 뿐
장례식장에 돈 봉투를 세던데
난 그때 잊지 못해 그게 느껴져 이해가 될듯해
그러지 않고서는 이 삶에서
버티지 못해 당연한듯한
사람들에게서
기대하지 않는 법을 배워야만 하지
누군가에 기대 크게 다치는 걸
난 배워야만 하지
기억나지 않아 추억이란 것 근데
그게 추억이랄 것도 없던 어릴 적 기억에
날 키워준 할머니 왜 지금은 없을까
그때 기억은 왜 추억이 아닌
악몽이 되어야 했을까
어떻게 하면 난 뭐가 된대?
어떻게 해도 난 뭣도 안돼
어떻게 살면 난 편한 건데
어떻게 살든 난 항상 불편할 텐데
어떻게 하면 난 뭐가 된대?
어떻게 해도 난 뭣도 안돼
어떻게 살면 난 편한 건데
어떻게 살든 난 항상 불편할 텐데
어느 순간 잊어버렸었던
기억하기 싫었고 난 그게 악몽이 되어버렸어
날 키워준 할머니의 마지막 모습
나를 욕하며 버리지 말라고 소리치던
그 요양원에서
처음 그리고 마지막 모습
난 그걸 기억하고 싶지는 않아
사실 알았고 난 시발 느꼈어
그때부터 필요한 내 합리화
그렇지 않고서는 버티지 못할듯해
그때 그 악몽 속에서
미안함과 허탈함 평생 본 사람조차
쉽게 사라지는 것과
사람은 사람이 사라져도
슬프기보단 싸움과 푼돈
그 외 다른 것은 절대로 없어 보였었던
결국 앞뒤 다른 놈이 할 줄 아는 것은
순 거짓말뿐 말만 할 뿐
잘못 알 턱 없는 놈은
잘못한 것이 없더라고
나도 단순했으면 좋았을까
이미 나도 똑같은 걸까
똑같아져야 할까
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권순찬 – Dive
권순찬 – 낙차
합리화 Lyrics Romanized
taeeonagi jeonbuteo byeongsin chwigeub-eul bad-assdeon uisaneun
nagtaeleul gwon-yuhae
nabogo jang-aelago mal-eul haessdadeonde
gomin kkeut-e abeoji deog-e jigeum yeogikkaji
wae geulaess-eulji molla jigeum bonikka don ttaemun-ieoss-eulkka
geuge maj-assdeon geo gat-a
naega neukkyeoon salm-ilan
jong-i susib jang-gwa bigyodoel ppun
geu suga jom daleul ppun
janglyesigjang-e don bongtuleul sedeonde
nan geuttae ij-ji moshae geuge neukkyeojyeo ihaega doeldeushae
geuleoji anhgoseoneun i salm-eseo
beotiji moshae dang-yeonhandeushan
salamdeul-egeseo
gidaehaji anhneun beob-eul baewoyaman haji
nugunga-e gidae keuge dachineun geol
nan baewoyaman haji
gieognaji anh-a chueog-ilan geos geunde
geuge chueog-ilal geosdo eobsdeon eolil jeog gieog-e
nal kiwojun halmeoni wae jigeum-eun eobs-eulkka
geuttae gieog-eun wae chueog-i anin
agmong-i doeeoya haess-eulkka
eotteohge hamyeon nan mwoga doendae?
eotteohge haedo nan mwosdo andwae
eotteohge salmyeon nan pyeonhan geonde
eotteohge saldeun nan hangsang bulpyeonhal tende
eotteohge hamyeon nan mwoga doendae?
eotteohge haedo nan mwosdo andwae
eotteohge salmyeon nan pyeonhan geonde
eotteohge saldeun nan hangsang bulpyeonhal tende
eoneu sungan ij-eobeolyeoss-eossdeon
gieoghagi silh-eossgo nan geuge agmong-i doeeobeolyeoss-eo
nal kiwojun halmeoniui majimag moseub
naleul yoghamyeo beoliji mallago solichideon
geu yoyang-won-eseo
cheoeum geuligo majimag moseub
nan geugeol gieoghago sipjineun anh-a
sasil al-assgo nan sibal neukkyeoss-eo
geuttaebuteo pil-yohan nae hablihwa
geuleohji anhgoseoneun beotiji moshaldeushae
geuttae geu agmong sog-eseo
mianhamgwa heotalham pyeongsaeng bon salamjocha
swibge salajineun geosgwa
salam-eun salam-i salajyeodo
seulpeugibodan ssaumgwa pundon
geu oe daleun geos-eun jeoldaelo eobs-eo boyeoss-eossdeon
gyeolgug apdwi daleun nom-i hal jul aneun geos-eun
sun geojismalppun malman hal ppun
jalmos al teog eobsneun nom-eun
jalmoshan geos-i eobsdeolago
nado dansunhaess-eumyeon joh-ass-eulkka
imi nado ttoggat-eun geolkka
ttoggat-ajyeoya halkka
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합리화 Lyrics English
The doctor who was treated as an idiot before he was born
Recommend abortion
I told you that I was disabled
Thanks to my father after my worries,
I don’t know why it was because of money now
I think that was right
What I have felt
Compared to dozens of paper
That number is just a little different
I put a money bag at the funeral home
I can’t forget it at that time, so I feel it and make sense
Without it, in this life
I can’t stand it for granted
From people
You have to learn how you don’t expect
I’m so injured by someone
I have to learn
I don’t remember, it’s a memory
I remember it when I was young
Why is there no grandmother who raised me now
At that time, I remember why not memories
Should I be a nightmare
What can I do?
I can’t do it anyway
How do I live?
No matter how I live, I will always be uncomfortable
What can I do?
I can’t do it anyway
How do I live?
No matter how I live, I will always be uncomfortable
I forgot at some point
I didn’t want to remember and I became a nightmare
The last look of the grandmother who raised me
I shouted to swear me and not throw away
In that nursing home
First and last look
I don’t want to remember it
Actually, I felt f#ck
Since then, my rationalization I need
Otherwise, I can’t hold it
Then in that nightmare
Even those who have seen it for a lifetime
Easily disappearing
Even if a person disappears
Rather than sadness, fighting and red money
I never seemed to have anything else
After all
Only pure lie just says
The wrong guy
I didn’t do anything wrong
I wish I was simple too
Is I already the same
Should it be the same
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권순찬 Lyrics – 합리화
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